September 9, 2012 6 notes + Reblog + Facebook + Twitter
It is true that I chose to love Lucretia then.  Two years later, I am unwilling to free myself from this sentiment.  I think sometimes I’ve wanted to.  At certain times I’ve resented her for something beyond her control, a feeling that was completely my own.  But somehow we’ve made amends and what it took was me telling her that I missed her.  I talk to her once a week (usually.)  But I still travel more than I know she could reasonably bear.  I am also planning to move almost 400 miles away from her since I have no other choice.  With all that has happen to me in the past two years, I cannot continue to live in the city of my birth.  I don’t know if she would consider joining me where I will be for the next five years, however, knowing the selfishness of this desire prevents me from making any requests of her.  So I try not to think about it because it is not a possibility.

It is true that I chose to love Lucretia then.  Two years later, I am unwilling to free myself from this sentiment.  I think sometimes I’ve wanted to.  At certain times I’ve resented her for something beyond her control, a feeling that was completely my own.  But somehow we’ve made amends and what it took was me telling her that I missed her.  I talk to her once a week (usually.) 

But I still travel more than I know she could reasonably bear.  I am also planning to move almost 400 miles away from her since I have no other choice.  With all that has happen to me in the past two years, I cannot continue to live in the city of my birth.  I don’t know if she would consider joining me where I will be for the next five years, however, knowing the selfishness of this desire prevents me from making any requests of her. 

So I try not to think about it because it is not a possibility.

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